Three composers - myself, Michale Beach, and Igor Nemirovsky - met tonight to view some of our mutual work. It was a great! Great to see where are mutual strengths were, to see projects that may not see the light of day but illustrate something we've done musically that may be different or off the beaten path.

It was also re-assuring to see that we all had certain weaknesses, certain insecurities about our work, doubts about the future. Igor yearns for music of a differert era, where the orchestra reigned supreme rather then being shrugged off as "generic." Michael works under the shadow of an amazing composer, unable to write anything new. I struggle with fundamental questions such as what is my musical identiy; wondering if I truly have anything original to say, and whether scoring is the right career choice.

Composers essentially work alone, and are typically very competitive in fighting for the scraps of work that are out there. There is no union; the SCL is fantastic for the most part yet not out of reach of industry politics. All reasons for why meetings like this should happen more often.